I grew up in a family of artists, which led both my sister and I to study music and performing arts from a very early age. Our father, mother, uncles, aunts and grandparents all had an artistic skill. My uncle makes feature films, my grandmother got an award for her painting work on silk kimonos and my dad took the largest photography in the world in his time.
But not many actually made a living career out of their passions, even those with the greatest achievements. Everyone created a beautiful portfolio in their own field of expertise, but all had to go through down-to-earth jobs at some point, to provide a decent life to their families.
As a know-it-all teenager, I used to think they had not been good enough to make it. So when I started gaining experience in film, I committed myself fully to never end up with a boring job I would hate for the rest of my life. I thought resistance would pay off.
Long story short, I now run the marketing for a rankings company and take pictures in my spare time. Unsurprisingly, it is not the latter that provide me with a decent living nor pays for my regular weekend trips in Europe where I get to do what I like: taking pictures.
Does that mean I failed? Or that I will never reach the career I have envisioned my whole life? Who knows? And more importantly, who cares? Writing those lines, yes, I am trying to convince myself it is all ok. But there is something that my day job has provided me, beyond the obvious monthly salary: security. And this security brought better things: creativity, confidence, reflection.
Now that I am not busy trying to make ends meet, I get things done. Any free time I have, I spend it making art. And I’ve only been doing this for less than a year, but I’ve seen progress in my work already. I even got one picture exhibited in a design fair in Germany back in January. It’s small, but it’s better than anything I have done in the five years I spent dedicating myself fully to arts.
Leaving my financial anxieties behind enabled me to work with efficiency on what I enjoy doing. There is no more pressure to become successful by the end of the month, otherwise the cat is going to run out of food. And that feels good.
If you really crave for something, whichever field it relates to, I guess it is worth considering getting a full-time job to afford this expensive gear you’ve been looking at or simply take your mind off boring matters such as your gas bill.
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